Feels Like a Vacation

Before I take a shower I feel like I owe everyone an update or something of that nature. I'll try my best not to ramble and be completely random. But I make no promises.

Lately it feels like we're just vacationing in the townhouse. It doesn't quite feel like home just yet. I still have boxes that haven't been unpacked yet so maybe when I unpack those it may feel more like home. I don't know yet. It just...I don't know. Something feels out of place here. I'm trying to make it feel like home but it's not there just yet.

Work has been....well, work. Next week I have three days off and I'm not sure how to feel about that. A part of me is happy but another part is upset because that's eight less hours on my check. D and I need all the money we can make right now. It's our first month and the rent is going to be late but we already budgeted out the late fee. Money is going to be tight this pay period but I think we can make it work. It's just...work has made me extremely tired and every time I try to do some housework I just get...tired and just want to lay on the couch and watch TV or play Arkham Asylum (which is awesome, BTW).

It's getting to the point to where on Monday's Old Time Radio Madness and Friday's Stickam chat that I just don't want to do it much anymore. Not because it's getting boring but because I feel like I need to spend some time with D since we both work wonky hours and don't get to see much of each other anymore. It's like he's watching TV and I'm upstairs in the office and we're miles apart. I know it sounds sappy but that's just how I feel. And I'm sure he feels like I hate him or something.

Sex has been minimal since we got married. It's true what they say about not having has much sex when you get married. I've just been tired and not in the mood lately. We've had sex twice this week when before it was like...four times a week minimum. The whole month of August we probably had sex four times TOTAL.

We still want children but after working and seeing how AWFUL the majority of the children that come in are, I want to hold off. I know that it's the parents who make their kids like that but I just got frustrated with them. Though if I get pregnant, I get pregnant. D and I discussed it and we decided that each paycheck we're going to put back a little bit of money just incase. That way we'll have something saved when/if I get pregnant. I've lost my faith in my uterus at this point though.

It's almost 1pm. I need to be at work at 3 so I need to get in the shower and get ready. I was suppose to go over to my aunt and uncle's to do some laundry but I woke up feel like crap today. Last night I was coughing my lungs up and even managed to bruise my ribs so I'm not feeling the best. Hopefully work goes by fast and I have no problems. I'm crossing my fingers and praying to whatever god will listen.